sakim

huwag kang lumapit sa'kin,
pagkat ika'y malilinlang rin
ng balatkayong angkin
ng yaring kaluluwang sakim.

lumayo ka't umiwas
sa karimlan ika'y tumakas
hangga't panaho'y di pa lumilipas
bago pa ikaw magumon sa pagwawakas.

huwag mo akong salingin
kung ayaw mong ika'y maangkin
angkini't gawing akin
ng kaluluwang ikaw ang nasang lihim.

kapag kaluluwa mo'y nahigit,
kalungkuta'y panandaliang iwawaglit
pagkat sa kaluluwang puno ng pait,

ikaw ang nais makamit.

straight

seven nights of insanity,
seven days of carelessness.
it was a week of lights,
it was a week of songs
in a small room with tables, bottles, buckets and smoke.

the week continues...

...and i miss everything so much.

[including you]

sensitizer

sensitizer.
sensitizer--you make me burn.
your mere existence makes me realize that i do exist.
you are the stimulus that makes me respond extravagantly.
you make me feel the extremes of affect.

conspiracy

in the wrong place and wrong time

---wrong instance,

i laid my eyes on you.

the planets aligned...

and everything conspired to convince a doubtful soul

that you are the "right" in the pool of wrongs.

i was indeed carried away by the persuasion.

the rain has fallen,

the effect of lights has faded...

i have realized:
it was a heap of coincidences

that this tired soul has blown out of proportion.

but on second thoughts,
the gathering of every stick to form the bundle
may be a work of fate.

i just have to wait for the next alignment of the planets

to confirm that yes, you are the "right" in the pool of wrongs.

[despite all the present veniality] so i would wait.

when the time comes,
with the planets aligned and stars that shine,
i would count all the concurrences,
--and maybe the i and the you will be an us.

wasted?

*cheers*

"come up to meet ya, tell you im sorry..."

*cheers*

"you're beautiful it's true..."

*cheers*

my head's spinnin' like a top.
am i wasted?
no, am not.

thoughts runnin' in my mind,
like in a race they wouldn't stop.
am i wasted?
no, am not.

a couple of gulps
with a few notes i could humm in my clouded mind.
those were woes of an undying yet dying "thing".
am i wasted?
certainly not.

"and tell me you love me,
come back and haunt me..."

*cheers*

i came back for you.

*you're so f*cking special, i wish i was special...

i'm a creep. i'm a weirdo. what am i doin' here?"

*cheers*

"but it's time to face the truth...
i'll never be with you..."

*cheers*

dadda will soon be home

i can feel you worry inside my womb.
do you hear momma cry?
don't worry honey, momma will be alright.
dadda will soon be home.

sleep my little child.
momma will keep you away from harm.
suckle your thumb, rest and be at peace.
dadda is on his way home.
do not listen to momma's cry.
do not feel momma's tears.
momma is fine.
momma will not let anyone hurt you.

worry not my little baby,
momma will never forsake you.
i shall hold you close to me.
dadda will be home soon.
dadda will be home soon.

i know

i am drowning
--drowning in the murky waters of grief and despair.
i know you wouldn't save me despite my struggle for little air.

i am chained
--chained in the pillars of pain and bitterness.
i know you wouldn't free me despite my battle for little freedom.

i am dying
--dying in misery in this sultry hell
i know you wouldn't redeem me despite my tight grasp for my dear life.

i know you would do a thing.
i just know.
you want to squelch my whole being.

luwad

may dalawang kimpal ng luwad.
hinubog ito sa dalawang rebulto--ikaw at ako.

kunin mo ang ating mga rebulto,
gutayin mo sa bawat bahagi.
pagsamahin mo.
masahin mo at gawing isa ang dalawang luwad.

may isang kimpal ng luwad.
hubugin mo ito sa dalawang rebulto--ikaw at ako.
hubugin mo ang dalawa mula sa isa...
sa iyo ay naroon ako,
at sa akin ay naroon ka.