a warm cup

i nod. lookin at the way you hesistate to take my hand, resting so near yours, i know you're already gone. i will make it easy for both of us, i tell myself.i will forget the feel of your hands on my skin. i will smile and tell you that i am happy for you because that's what you want to hear, and that is what i want to believe. i will not hope you will be back soon nor say that i wish i were going with you. Instead, i will keep in mind that there is nothing between us anymore. it is just that the coffee is too warm, and i am so cold.
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